Last night I slept with Spiderman. I wrapped my arms around his large plush head and slept. I borrowed my son’s plush toy for two reasons. The first being that I found sleeping while holding a toy or pillow keeps my hands from falling asleep. The second being I hoped that sideman would absorb my stress.
Oh Spiderman 😍
Have you ever tried to push your stress or any other emotion into something else? I’m not sure it works, but I’m going to keep trying.
It’s December. And I’m tired. I mean, I’m always tired, but I’m more tired than normal. I am mentally trying to remember everything that needs to be done before a variety of dates. With the holidays coming, it adds lots of layers to my limited mental capacity.
Last week, my EE wanted me to sign up for something regarding Google encryption. I think? I don’t really remember. He kept talking at me about what a great thing it is and how it will do something to increase safety. I looked at him and said “I don’t have the brain capacity to think about that. I don’t have any more space right now.”
Bless him, he backed off.
I’m slowly crossing things off my list. And slowly adding things I’ve forgotten. By the end of the night, I’m sitting on the couch and my arms and hands pulse with fatigue as my brain begins to shut down. It’s the one time of day that I am not actively forcing my muscles to relax. For this I am grateful.
I am amazed at how many additional things are popping up this month. Dentist appointments, parent/teacher conferences, parties, yard sales, dungeons & dragons obligations (did I just write it that?), and a leaking dishwasher. It’s a little overwhelming. I’m a little overwhelmed.
And all of this is normal. Big holidays come with big plans. And it can take time and energy you didn’t know you had to pull off the events. And I want the big event to be fun and cozy. I’ll take fun over amazing and I’ll take cozy over busy.
We push ourselves for the things that are important. For me, what’s important is family. And at the end of December, it will have all been worth it.
I hope you have that something as well, something worth pushing yourself. And may you have a better stress reliever than me.
Are you stressed right now? Comment below and tell me how you are dealing with it. I’ll reply when I wake up. 😄
NOTE: This was originally posted on my other website on December 10, 2019 (lucilleyateswrites.wordpress.com)